I am really bad with writing on here. What you’ve missed, my loyal readers, has been a lot of generalized anxiety, some school work, planning, adventuring and a whole lot of missing.

That was quite possibly the worst sentence ever written.

My life at school is the best it ever has been, but my mind has been in overdrive. Hopefully I’ll figure things out just in time for summer.

The year is winding down and I am kinda freaking out. I am really not looking forward to saying goodbye to N2. I am not finished with them yet and I will really miss Wednesday nights. I never expected to be so mutually affected. I think I have learned more from them than they have from me and Christin.

And then there’s being an RA next year.. I am so excited, but so dang nervous. Can I handle it? Have I set myself up for failure? I know this is what God wanted, but I have gotten so many discouraging comments about it. Being a nursing major and an RA has been scoffed at by so many people. However, being a nursing major and anything else is scoffed at by everyone.

This last month I have learned what a joy new friends are and how essential old friends are no matter how many new people you let into your heart. There’s just something so wonderful about the kind of understanding that can only come with time.

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Some Pics from the weekend..

Some of 06-07 Getsch RAs

PS: I did went to Google Sitemaps and tried to get some stats on Lindsaym.com. Last week, “lindsay lake xanga” was the number 1 search query. Intriguing.

I just found “MySpace” today. It’s weird. It’s like xanga only more visually stimulating…lots of pictures and flashing icons. I wasted a lot of time there.
I am officially freaking out over the triathlon and I pretty much have lost all ambition to finish this year strong.

This was yesterday:

Everyone grab your diaries and mark this down: This is the first time I have ever come back to school and been totally okay. I wasn’t upset when I left and I wasn’t awkward and overwhelmed when I came back. Transitioning from home to school is getting easier and I am starting to find a place here at Bethel. Having new friends and a lighter academic load helps.

Easter weekend was awesome! I wish I had more time to spend with people. It just wasn’t enough. It is so hard to cram everything into such a short time. This summer will be different, but I think it will be good to have more time at home.

The triathlon is very soon and I am not prepared. I really need to kick it into high gear these coming weeks both literally and figuratively. Literally, of course, referring to the highest gear on my bicycle. My dad and I fixed up his old bike from back in the day and it is stinkin sweet.

Today I learned what pingback is and why when you google “lindsay martinkus” this comes up as the number 1 result:
http://www.jobaloo.com/blog/2006/02/01/are-you-getting-the-most-out-of-gmail/#comments

From BBC’s report on the trial of Zacarias Moussaoui:

Defence lawyers say the jury should spare Missouri’s life because of his limited role in the attacks, evidence of mental illness, and because his execution would only fulfil his dream of martyrdom.